Hello, my name is Rose, and I have Impostor Syndrome. This is not a new experience for me, nor a surprise for many of you. Lots of us experience it! It’s another of those mental phenomena that seem easy to address, but which doesn’t necessarily respond to “logical” arguments. Luckily, I think it’s one that has a lot less stigma than our old friend depression. Unluckily, it’s one that can also stand between me and the things that I need to get done.
One premise of our book project, and one of our driving life philosophies, is that expertise is less important than well-applied energy. I can’t speak to or instruct anyone else on how they should best go about putting their energy to work. What I know about myself is this: I am easily disheartened, and I let little bumps stop my progress. It doesn’t take much frustration for me to be ready to give up, and that is a problem that only I can address. And it’s one that has become a major problem for me with regard to taking care of the business of writing our book, and writing at all.
I keep hitting little bumps and letting them throw me completely off track. One of the things that I need to do to keep up my momentum is write about things that are not directly related to the book. I need to write about food again, and knitting (and, for that matter, do some knitting), and toddler behavior, and I don’t know what else. Craft projects! Things that are bullshit.
So, here we are, at the place where I am facing down some intimidating tasks, and without the luxury of giving up. For me, that means that I’m probably going to need to do a lot of pep-talking and reminding myself that I’ve got this under control. The good news for you is that this means more content! More pictures of things! More semi-nonsensical ramblings about craft projects gone awry! Probably more pictures of That Kid adorably interfering with whatever I’m trying to accomplish! And probably a lot more talk about process. Oh, and definitely some ranting about children’s television. I’ve got a lot to say about that.
While that is happening, most of the book-related writing is probably going to be a little more behind-the-scenes. I don’t really like sharing my unpolished work, and more importantly, I don’t want to give everything away. I think I also need to invest a little energy into reminding myself that I am, actually, competent. Impostor syndrome is the balls, guys! But I don’t feel like an impostor when I’m talking about food, or crafts, or things that are bullshit.
As ever, thanks for reading. I’m happy to have you here!